What does it mean when people say, “remember who you are?” And, why do we forget?

1002806_894756000154_1600458832_nThe oldest questions are still the truest.

Who are you?

What are you?

Why are you here?

When you “remember who you are”, what are you remembering?

Are you “awake?”

And, if it’s so important to “remember who you are”, why do we forget?

These questions have shaped my life since I can remember.  They have driven me in a fundamental commitment to live a life that matches the truth of my soul.

I “woke up” when I was 5.  I woke up again when I was 11.  Again, when I was 19.  And… again.

I have often forgotten.  Why?

In the last few weeks, through a series of ceremonies, intensely healing dance practices and quiet time with nature, I’ve “remembered who I am” yet again.  Who am I?  I am love, light, pure radiance – just like you.  And, me, personally?   I am a star priestess from a timeless lineage of star priestesses.  I come from the Early Ones from the Great Central Sun.  I carry original codes for planetary healing and balance.  I have incarnated countless times on planet earth, all of these incarnations (both past and future) culminate in the singularity of this lifetime and it’s particular evolutionary potential for all of life on planet earth.  I am an intuitive, a healer, a leader, a teacher of teachers, a dance shamaness, an earth keeper, a keeper of life’s true pattern for abundance and royalty which is only divinely aligned when stewarded in integrity with the balance of All of Life.  None of this is a function of ego.  And, it’s not woowoo.  It’s just true.  It’s a statement of soul essence.  It’s up to me to somehow embody it in the messy complexity of this life.  It’s up to me to “be” this as a function of surrender and showing up.  It’s up to me to walk the lifelong process of developing of a healthy, human ego and identity that matches this soul truth and makes good use of it.

That’s your job, too.

Your job, ultimately, once you remember who you are, is to live a life that matches the image within your soul.

Yet, forgetting is a part of the process.  Forgetting creates the whole journey of remembering as a recapitulating experience that deepens and becomes more mature each time it happens.  Cycles of forgetfulness and remembrance allow us to embody the soul in a truly magical, human, authentic, non-linear way.  If we knew the end of the movie, we wouldn’t be fully present for it.  If we always remembered, we would miss out on the funky, fallible, broken, exquisite depths of being human.  We would miss the dark nights that shape our souls when we fall down.   We would miss the pleasure of bumbling our way out of caves.

And, it’s a great risk to live fully awake.  When you put your true self out there, you risk being attacked for your light.  You risk being fully seen.  You have nowhere to hide.  You risk offering your your deepest love and truth to the world and being rejected or, worse, being wildly successful and so needing to tolerate great attention or power.  You risk needing to “keep it together” when the deeper rhythm of a soul centered life can in no way be determined by society’s version of success.

Risk is inherent to an awake life.  Get used to it. It’s worth it.

I love all the spiritual slogans and Facebook posts I see these days that say, “Remember who you are.”

We – the human species – are indeed remembering.  And this really matters, because, as we remember, we fan the spiraling fire of evolution by bringing our unique soul gifts to the world.  But, as we remember, let’s also allow some space to forget.  That compassion is the seat of a deeper liberation – a liberation into loving it all, a liberation into life on life’s terms.

As you wake up, listen.  Underneath the elevation of your soul’s majesty, you will hear a quieter tug to respond to this life with wisdom, courage and responsibility.  As you wake up, make a space in yourself to forget – and to remember again – more grounded, more real, more human.

I’ll meet you there.

Courage

Mid-August.  It is Monday night in Tokyo: hot, sultry weather and a room full of bodies in full motion.  Thirty dancers reveal the soul dancing as I “hold space” – just being fully myself and weaving light in the room.  The whole place vibrates, and I feel the earth sending waves of gratitude to us through the floor.

It is a remarkable and brave thing to dance your soul.  Naked, vulnerable and free, I see dancers opening body, heart and spirit in the motion.  Sweaty and blissful, I see people in divine radiance.  I see courage.  I see the whole person.  I see the dance of life, death and birth.  I see timelessness.  It’s exquisite!

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As I witness, I begin to contemplate this remarkable courage, expression and beauty.  I think about who these dancers are as people, as spirits, as wisdom keepers.  I shiver.

What is a person? A person is a collection of perceptions, feelings and actions.  A person is a skin bag full of bones, blood and heart.  A person is a miracle – with arms, legs, spine and a mouth to speak.  A person is a spiritual event happening one moment at a time.   A person is a body that includes the physical, emotional, mental, higher self, soul and spirit, all weaving together in one unfolding conversation of Self.    A person is a dance.

What is a dance? A dance is an act of essence.  It is a set of motions dissolving in space and time, never to be repeated again, known only through the experience of the dancer or the awareness of the witness.  A dance is a deeply courageous act.

What is courage? Courage is what I witness every day when these remarkable beings called humans come to do this incredible action called dancing.

Courage is naked self. It requires a willingness to perceive, feel and act.  It requires presence.  It takes guts.

When I see people connecting deeply to what their senses perceive, their bodies and emotions feel, and their dances express, I see raw humanity.  I see incredible, wild, truth.  I see diversity, and I see unity. I see divinity.  Courage is what I see when a person deeply perceives him or herself in the movement, allows that perception to be totally felt, and finds the willingness to express that into the dance.  It is risky.  There are no guarantees.  The gamble is our own freedom.

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Courage means being your self totally, without apology, shame or doubt.  It means being vulnerable.  It is a tool for being wide awake – totally alive and free.  Without the courage to be vulnerable, we can never know true power.  True power comes from embrace of life, not control over it.  The dance asks us to loose control and thus experience being – totally.  It asks us for real embrace.  You can’t dance if you are busy editing your own feelings and actions.  You have to be unconditional.  This is how we learn self-love.

Here in Tokyo, we are dancing.  People are coming together – body and soul – to Dance Freedom and sweat prayers.   Everything is breaking open: hearts wide open, pores wide open, voices wide open, expression wide open!  I am in AWE of what I see.  Awe.  There is no other word for it.  It get kundalini waves just thinking about it.

The freedom to experience and express the self is such a radical thing here in Japan.  Just the concepts of self-awareness and self-leadership are radical.  There is no word for sovereignty in the Japanese Language.  In this culture, there has been so little space to feel, so little room for individuation. Space is tight.  You get by.  You do what you are told.  You fit in and work hard and live in responsibility to your family and ancestors.  You live in the context of a larger culture, an older order and continuity over which you have no control.  Yet, there is an incredible momentum towards self development and a growing drive towards sovereignty.  There is also a call to release the old pictures of cultural identity to enter new possibilities of beauty.  People are claiming their power and recognizing that they are creators.  There is a spark of passion – soul fire! – coming alive everywhere, like the day glow colors on the billboards of this endless city.  These people are so courageous!

This new Soul Fire is idiosyncratic, self-affirming and radiantly alive.  It arrives as a wordless drive, or a will to know, and it opens the gates of the heart.   People are shedding the skins of culture and asking WHO AM I?  WHAT DO I WANT?  WHAT AM I HERE TO CREATE?  HOW CAN I LOVE – MORE?  HOW CAN I BE FREE?  WHAT IS MY PURPOSE?   HOW CAN I LET GO OF EGO?  Each place I go, I meet people struggling with the Great Questions.  It is time to dance.  In the dance we arrive at sensation, feeling and action: the simplest building blocks of our humanity.  We remember that the answers are not external, like new clothes or new jobs, but are held in the heart and in the ways in which we experience our lives. We find the courage to be ourselves, and THIS is the only real answer.  Let life be an endless question.  It is much more interesting that way.  This is where the Dance of Freedom begins.

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“Ours is not the task of fixing the entire world all at once, but of stretching out to mend the part of the world that is within our reach. One of the most calming and powerful actions you can do to intervene in a stormy world is to stand up and show your soul. Soul on deck shines like gold in dark times. The light of the soul throws sparks, can send up flares, builds signal fires.”
— Clarissa Pinkola Estes