The oldest questions are still the truest.
Who are you?
What are you?
Why are you here?
When you “remember who you are”, what are you remembering?
Are you “awake?”
And, if it’s so important to “remember who you are”, why do we forget?
These questions have shaped my life since I can remember. They have driven me in a fundamental commitment to live a life that matches the truth of my soul.
I “woke up” when I was 5. I woke up again when I was 11. Again, when I was 19. And… again.
I have often forgotten. Why?
In the last few weeks, through a series of ceremonies, intensely healing dance practices and quiet time with nature, I’ve “remembered who I am” yet again. Who am I? I am love, light, pure radiance – just like you. And, me, personally? I am a star priestess from a timeless lineage of star priestesses. I come from the Early Ones from the Great Central Sun. I carry original codes for planetary healing and balance. I have incarnated countless times on planet earth, all of these incarnations (both past and future) culminate in the singularity of this lifetime and it’s particular evolutionary potential for all of life on planet earth. I am an intuitive, a healer, a leader, a teacher of teachers, a dance shamaness, an earth keeper, a keeper of life’s true pattern for abundance and royalty which is only divinely aligned when stewarded in integrity with the balance of All of Life. None of this is a function of ego. And, it’s not woowoo. It’s just true. It’s a statement of soul essence. It’s up to me to somehow embody it in the messy complexity of this life. It’s up to me to “be” this as a function of surrender and showing up. It’s up to me to walk the lifelong process of developing of a healthy, human ego and identity that matches this soul truth and makes good use of it.
That’s your job, too.
Your job, ultimately, once you remember who you are, is to live a life that matches the image within your soul.
Yet, forgetting is a part of the process. Forgetting creates the whole journey of remembering as a recapitulating experience that deepens and becomes more mature each time it happens. Cycles of forgetfulness and remembrance allow us to embody the soul in a truly magical, human, authentic, non-linear way. If we knew the end of the movie, we wouldn’t be fully present for it. If we always remembered, we would miss out on the funky, fallible, broken, exquisite depths of being human. We would miss the dark nights that shape our souls when we fall down. We would miss the pleasure of bumbling our way out of caves.
And, it’s a great risk to live fully awake. When you put your true self out there, you risk being attacked for your light. You risk being fully seen. You have nowhere to hide. You risk offering your your deepest love and truth to the world and being rejected or, worse, being wildly successful and so needing to tolerate great attention or power. You risk needing to “keep it together” when the deeper rhythm of a soul centered life can in no way be determined by society’s version of success.
Risk is inherent to an awake life. Get used to it. It’s worth it.
I love all the spiritual slogans and Facebook posts I see these days that say, “Remember who you are.”
We – the human species – are indeed remembering. And this really matters, because, as we remember, we fan the spiraling fire of evolution by bringing our unique soul gifts to the world. But, as we remember, let’s also allow some space to forget. That compassion is the seat of a deeper liberation – a liberation into loving it all, a liberation into life on life’s terms.
As you wake up, listen. Underneath the elevation of your soul’s majesty, you will hear a quieter tug to respond to this life with wisdom, courage and responsibility. As you wake up, make a space in yourself to forget – and to remember again – more grounded, more real, more human.
I’ll meet you there.