Living a Life-y Life

Choice.  Change.  Courage.

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Here’s my question for the week:

Live a life of order, dependability, safety and culturally pre-defined pathways to success?

OR

Live the one, true, wild, strange, beautiful, magical, ever challenging, continuously learning, co-creative and constantly emergent dance of the life spirit intends for you?  A life lived in accord with the magic, chaos and order of life itself?

Uh… I don’t know…

I choose door number two.

YOU?

Who’s life are you living? 

Are you living the status quo or the rich and wild intelligence of life as it flows uniquely through you?

Are you willing to confess the ways in which you are out of integrity with your values or your soul’s wisdom or your truest dreams?

Are you willing to RISK the life you prayed for?

What will happen if you don’t?


I live with these questions as constant companions.  I care to live my life in integrity with my soul and with life itself.

There are infinite voices – subtle, ubiquitous, highly programed messages – that tug constantly at the subconscious trying to get us live the status quo, to sell us on some one else’s version of a fulfilling life, to convince us that meaning and value are to be found somewhere other than our homes, our hearts, our hearths – in screens and text windows and the measure of bank accounts.  We are surrounded by a deadening technological pulse of mass culture perpetuating  the desire engines of capitalism, splitting us from our simple, earthly, sensate connections with the very life-y life of life.  But, these voices don’t speak for soul… they don’t represent the deeper intelligence of life.  Business as usual generally doesn’t cause happiness, nor does it empower the soul, nor is it at all sustainable, let alone regenerative or full-bodied joyful.

I, for one, am incapable of feeling at all comfortable in in my skin in a “business as usual” life.

So, I choose to follow soul, spirit and the inseparability of my dance with the larger pulse and intelligence of life.  I do my best to listen and respond – to create my days as an offering and a prayer for joy, for truth and for the wholeness and continuity of the One Great Life.

This almost always causes change.

It always takes courage – more than I think I have.

Anything other than this leaves me feeling deadened and flat.

And you? 

Are you living “business as usual?”  Or, are you choosing?  Allowing the change?  Breathing in courage?

It’s chooser’s choice all the time.   No time like the present.

Make the prayer.

Live a life-y life.

This is my way of being home in the journey, and of coming home by being true to my self.

It’s not about easy.

It’s about honest.

It promises a life you can walk in – in your own skin – in the body you’ve been given and the unique gifts of your soul – in service and in harmony with life.

Love,

Samantha

Make Your Darkness Conscious

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“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” – Carl Jung

It’s scary to be scared.  It’s hard to like yourself when you are depressed.  It can be challenging to love another person when they are angry or in trigger.

On the other hand…

What would brightness be without shadow?  Could the universe exist without the mysterious 90% dark matter that comprises it?  Could we ever know ourselves fully without journeying through the dark?

I don’t think we can.

We need to rub up against the unknown, against challenge, pain, loss, insecurity and inadequacy to know ourselves.  We need to journey through the dark in order to wake up.

I call this the friction principle.  It seems we are designed to thrive by meeting and moving though challenge, to dance with the mystery as our partner and so to know ourselves as light.

And, since life is fundamentally unsafe, the only way to safety is to be safe with our selves as we dance in the dark.

I’ve noticed that dance is a particularly compassionate and embracing space for doing this kind of work.  Why?  Because if forces us to meet our real feelings and sensations in real time, and to meet ourselves in the mirror of other in a real experiment of intimacy with what is.

When Jung referred to shadow, he didn’t just mean that which was dark, he meant any part of one’s self that was outside of awareness.  Any part of one’s self that we do not see or have not fully embraced. 

For most of my life, I’ve been doing shadow work through movement and ceremony.  I’ve gone straight into the intelligence of my body and the sacred mirror of community to work with the shadow as the womb for deeper soul expression.  As I’ve done this, I’ve come to notice that a wider, wiser experience of my life and a more total acceptance and love for the perfect imperfection of the human experience as a whole.  I’ve become able to listen to and navigate my life as an expression of my soul.   I’ve learned how to compost my s**t.  Sometimes, I even give it back as flowers – as my business, Dancing Freedom, as all the daily acts of giving and receiving that make my life awesome, as a song, as a dance.

You can do this, too.

This is not a lifetime to be small, weak or fearful.  It’s not a lifetime to come into your life from anger.

It’s a lifetime to enlighten, to enliven.  A time to make the darkness conscious.

So, when you are feeling that smallness, that insignificance, that not enoughness, or that feeling that you are just going to explode, or implode, or float away, turn into that feeling.

Bring it to the dance floor.  Make your darkness conscious.  And in so doing, be the light.

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