Awe at the incredible grace, love, beauty, wisdom and creativity of my fellow humans.
Rebellion against the radical sickness we humans buy into in the form of systems, structures and behavioral norms we take for granted and inhabit unconsciously as though they were the way nature intended it.
Particularly, I’ve spent heaps of times the last 6 months seeking to do my business “the grown up way.” I’ve schooled myself on accounting, target marketing, business planning, time management, leadership strategy and SEO. I’ve sought the advice of colleagues who have had far greater success than I in scaling their offering and services. I’ve done detailed coaching for myself and my organization with old high school and collage friends who now run global organizations. And… I’ve gotta say, to my own credit, I’m pretty good at this shit.
But… at the end of the day, I can’t say I’m any happier or more successful for it.
In fact, in the last few days, I’ve had some pretty serious meltdown-y emotions and needed to do a lot of bitching because, really… I feel totally itchy, constricted and creatively constipated when I work this way. And, I’m no more productive or efficient. If anything, I’m effective at achieving things in a linear way, but they totally lack magic. Working like this is antithetical to my intuition and the organic chaos-in-order that is the natural signature of true beauty.
My soul’s in rebellion.
What I’ve discovered:
The only path that really works for me is an organic and intuitive path of love – a constant meditation and motion in life flow – a following of what love wants.
Today, I’m super present to this:
Life runs on love.
It doesn’t run on SAP or Google or Chrome. It can’t be found in the Cloud. It can’t be sprouted out of anyone’s head – no matter how brilliant. It’s not interested in scalability,
Life runs on love. It runs on the sticky, juicy, touch, feely, wiggly, wondrous, refined and magical, mysterious and unpackageable, je ne se quoi, everybody wants it/no one really knows what it is THING we call love.
My business runs on love.
My meetings run on love.
My relationships, when they are working, run on 144% pure love.
I’m not saying this because I pretend to know what love is. The moment you try to define it, it slides like sand between your grasping fingers. But, these hands do know a few things about letting go… I do know a thing or two about feeling love, living it, trusting it, and being it.
This is enough.
From today. I rededicate my life, my business and my relationships to being sourced and resourced from here. It seems to be my recipe for optimal performance. It’s not an easy, step-by-step formula. It’s individual and subjective. It’s up to me to do it my way. It’s up to you to do it yours. It’s a good way to live.
Let’s see what happens.